CONFINED TO A house in Las Vegas with 15 other professional fighters for six weeks, being chosen for โThe Ultimate Fighterโ is supposed to represent the biggest opportunity of an MMA athleteโs career.
But after one day of filming for the 19th season of the UFCโs reality TV series, Chris Fields felt heโd had enough.
It may have been a reliable method of finding the future stars of MMA when it first went to air ten years ago, but the sport has moved on since then and itโs now widely accepted that TUF has passed its sell-by date.
โI really didnโt enjoy it. At all,โ Fields told The42. โIt kind of changed my outlook on the whole thing, to be honest.
โThe second night we were there, I contemplated packing my bag and leaving. I knew thatโd be the end of my career if I did, but thatโs how much I didnโt like it; the fact that I was contemplating ending my whole career over it.โ
Fields ultimately stuck it out, but was eliminated in the quarter-finals. The TUF experience left a sour taste, however. The Dubliner had given up his bank job to put his weight behind a push for a successful MMA career, but this had left him at a crossroads.
He was still showing up at the SBG gym, putting in the hours, training with the professional team and coaching the next generation, but no longer getting quite as much enjoyment from it as he once did.
And being a professional athlete in a combat sport is not a pleasant occupation when youโre not having fun. Fields cites the case of Olympic boxing medallist Darren Sutherland.
Amid reports that he had been suffering from depression, Sutherland died tragically in September 2009 โ just over a year after taking a bronze medal at the Beijing Games.
โI didnโt know Darren Sutherland very well but I met him a few times,โ says Fields, who crossed paths with the Olympian while training at the Irish Strength Institute in Dublin.
โI donโt have any inside scoop on what happened with Darren, but he wasnโt enjoying what he was doing anymore. And when youโre not enjoying it and getting hit in the face, itโs probably the worst job in the world. Youโre sore, youโre emotionalโฆ itโs not healthy.โ
With TUF fights classed as exhibition bouts, itโs now been 20 months since Fields last fought professionally. The time away from the cage has allowed him to take stock and rediscover what attracted him to mixed martial arts in the first place.
Having once put so much pressure on himself to perform that it suffocated him when it was time to do so, Fieldsโ new priority is enjoyment, not achievement. But heโs confident that the latter will follow. Because now the work has become enjoyable again.
Killing the obsession he once had with making it to the UFC has also helped in that regard. Itโs still the aim, but the success of his career no longer depends on it, thanks to a fresh approach.
โIโve found a love for it again. I started to treat it like a job, but one of the reasons I started doing this is because I didnโt want to work a normal job. You know, you have to be here at this time or you have to do this at that time,โ explains Fields.
โWith the UFC, it was a weird experience to go there [via TUF] and get a feel for what it is. Itโs not the perfect experience itโs made out to be. Certainly not the dream I always had in my head. Thereโs not millions to be made in the UFC. Itโs not this goldmine we all thought it was.
โBut it is where the best fights are. Thatโs the main reason for trying to get there, for me. I just want to fight and have fun. Whatever happens after that is fine. That feels more pure to me because itโs why I started training from day one.โ
A former Cage Warriors middleweight champion, Fields is still on the UFCโs radar in spite of his TUF disappointment. If youโre wondering whoโs most likely to be the next Irish fighter in MMAโs top organisation, putting your money on anyone other than Fields would be risky.
A clear indication of Fieldsโ UFC credentials will emerge next weekend when he makes his return to action. Heโll face highly-regarded French middleweight Cheick Kone under the banner of British organisation BAMMA on Saturday night in Wolverhampton, England.
โBasically, what I was told [by the UFC] was to go and have a fight or two. Even if I can win this fight well I think Iโd be in immediately, because theyโre looking for Irish guys.
โBut if not, two wins and Iโm in. But Iโm not stressing about it because Iโm having fun, Iโll continue to have fun and when itโs not fun anymore Iโll stop doing it.โ
After such a long lay-off, thereโll be nerves. But there always are. Itโs what athletes thrive on at that level.
Fields: โIโm nervous because thereโs a guy going to punch me in the face. Weโre going out to hurt each other. But itโs okay to be like that.
โPeople donโt jump out of airplanes just because itโs fun. Theyโre shitting themselves but they still do it because it challenges that human instinct to not do something. Itโs like the feeling you have before you step in cold water. But once youโre in there, itโs fine.โ
Stepping in cold water or fighting a large Frenchman in a cage? I know which option Iโd prefer. But then Iโm not a UFC middleweight. Hopefully before 2015 is done, Chris Fields will be.
The big question is if cork lose, will they GAA change the format fit Div1? Of course they will if Murphy has anything to do with it!!!
What?
Is this game being broadcast live on tv?
Yes tg4@3.00
Thanks Noel
It said deferred viewing!! Football first? Kildare v Tyrone 2pm, Dub v mayo 3.45โฆ.cork Clare??5.00??
I think it the format is changing anyway, just as people were getting their heads around this structure.